I have noticed that I suffer more in beautiful natural surroundings, simply for the reason that I expect myself to more fully appreciate it, and that creates stress. The way I had often dealt with this in the past is to take a picture, even though pictures NEVER do justice and when I look at them later I am almost ambivalent. As if by taking a picture I could immortalize this moment, prevent impermanence, and absorb its beauty over a lifetime (and my kids lifetimes).
No. This moment will never happen again. I cannot immortalize it. I cannot fully appreciate it. It is already leaving. And I shouldn't even try to savor it. The part of me that needs to appreciate and hold onto it is suffering. Every moment is just as precious (and mundane) as ever other. And until I let go of needing the moment to be anything other than what it is, or keeping it as it is, there will be suffering.
No. This moment will never happen again. I cannot immortalize it. I cannot fully appreciate it. It is already leaving. And I shouldn't even try to savor it. The part of me that needs to appreciate and hold onto it is suffering. Every moment is just as precious (and mundane) as ever other. And until I let go of needing the moment to be anything other than what it is, or keeping it as it is, there will be suffering.
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